Flashes of Life

I stand here silently in this hospital room
A prayer in my heart and a sense of impending doom
This kid's still alive and so is the grenade
Gotta get it out before history is made

All I see are blood, guts, and soldier's cries
Holding my breath while my life flashes before my eyes
If there's anything I want, it's to make it through
Then I'll get to come home in time to see you

The earliest memory I have was when I was three
It was a Sunday afternoon just my grandmom and me
She held me in her arms, as she sang me to sleep
Kissed me on the forehead, without making a peep

Not even a week later, I was nearly snuffed out
Almost drowned before I was four, but someone pulled me out
Our neighbor hurdled the fence, without thinking saved my life
No one should ever have to go through that twice

I remember when the most important thing in the world,
Was finding the t-rex first, watching the clouds swirl
Never had to worry about bills or debt
We had no clue about last wills or death
Life was so simple, not like today
Not like this world that's so full of dismay

Early December, I remember it well
His careless mistakes threw us into our little hell
Don't be mad at them, they're just doing their job
He told me this as they took him and started to sob
My childhood was taken away from me
Had to grow up too fast, look at what's become of me

I had a dream once, I couldn't wake up
It finally hit me how life can be so tough
Some days you just wanna quit
Others you simply get over it

The things in my head, I hope are only daydreams...
Like a ghost, they haunt me, and make me want to scream
It's like a nightmare stuck on repeat...I just don't get it
Help me through this, and I swear you won't regret it

Here I am, head completely over heels
My heart wont stop racing and my mind seems to reel
The only thing holding me back this time is a language barrier
And the only way you can save her this time is to marry her
One year later, the plan didn't pull through
Might as well try to get out and find someone new
Always the best friend, but never the boyfriend
Her words might be honest but they sting just like poison

I don't know where I'm going, and can't remember where I've been
I've done the best I could to not slip into a life of sin
I'm what you would call a shattered version of perfect
I just need someone to help me break the surface
I realize I'm no catch, nor your standard trophy husband
Give me a chance so I can finally stand for something

Looking back on so many years past
Can't say it was exciting, but it all went too fast
Back to the present where the air's thick like mud
A sigh of relief, the grenade was a dud...