Alcatraz

People wonder why he's so quiet
They think it's by choice
Why bother trying to talk?
When you don't even have a voice…

Days go by, cooped up in this room
That's putting it nicely… because it's more like a tomb
It's like Alcatraz, here in my head
Some days I feel alive, but most I feel dead

The cynic inside me can bring out the worst
It won't be the last time and it's definitely not the first
At times, the haze seems impossible to break through
Once the fog clears, all I can see is you.

I don't know what I need, nor where to start
At times I still have trouble finding my heart
It just not where it used to be…
The one thing that's best in me

All I've ever known was how to look for lost hope
Sad thing is, that its the only way I've been able to cope
Heartbreaks and letdowns here left and right
What the hell's going to get me through the night.

People always tell me that I'm so strong
I just don't see how I lasted this long
Anyone else would have ended it years ago
But somehow I've been able to keep telling the voices, "No"
Don't get me wrong, its crossed my mind
Sanity just isn't always that hard to find